Damon and Elena SWEET

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b15pCWeKdzw  – The kills – Goodnight Bad Morning

I just wanted to write this, just because I kept on thinking about it. 302VampireDiaries1654

There it is. Listen to that song while looking at that picture. Best if you’re a Vampire Diaries/Delena( Damon and Elena ) fan. If not you might not visualize so easily. Anyway, the purpose of using that song and that picture was for you to imagine them dancing. Not like in a club or anything, just where their at( in Elena’s room ), their not together( for obvious reasons )they’re just dancing with their foreheads touching. Damon’s leading, and the music is swaying them.They’re just dancing, swaying, and Elena might have her arms draped around Damon’s neck, his hand might be on her back. Nothing sexual, just romantic, yet not.

READ if you don’t know what those obvious reasons were: Damon is Stefan’s older brother. Stefan was dating Elena, because she looked exactly like Katherine,the vampire that both brothers fell in love with in 1864 and she turned them into vampires hoping that they could all be together( freaky I know, Katherine’s seriously twisted ). She “died” in a fire and both brothers grieved in their own way away from each other, they hated each other all those years. Anyway, Stefan was the good brother( only drinking animal blood, very twilight I know ) and Damon was played off as the bad brother( drinking human blood ), but over time that changed. Damon learned to control himself and dialed his impulsive, do whatever I want act down because he fell in love with Elena. Fast forwarding, Stefan was forced to cross over to the dark side to save his brother from death, and now( like legit, when the season starts back up on the 5th of Jan.)he’s trying to get his humanity back, planning to torture the one who made him turn it off( Klaus ). Back tracking, Stefan was fighting turning off his humanity because he loved Elena so much, but Klaus got in the way. Over the course of their relationship, Damon has made it known that he loves Elena, and we know deep down she felt something for him. Over the summer Stefan was gone and they became extra close, all the while looking for Stefan, trying to bring him back. Once Klaus compelled Stefan to stay with them while he was away on business Elena slowly realizes that she’s lost him and leans even more closer to Damon. And in the mid season finale, Elena clutched Damon’s face in her hands lovingly and told him she’ll let him go( I almost died, along with a billion other fans ) Before because Elena’s Stefan’s girl he wouldn’t go there, he had some dignity, and because she obviously wasn’t over Stefan. Now all bets are off! Hopefully you’ll check out the mid season premiere of the Vampire Diaries on Jan 5(Thursday) @ 8 on the CW

Here are some links to some of the most action packed, or romantic videos from VD: I’ll say from what season and what’s happening before you watch it.

WARNING EXTREMELY SEXY AND GIVES AWAY SOME SPOILERS, WATCH WITH CAUTION http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PRpND4T4cZI SEASON 3 PROMO – The Kills – Damned if she do( song in trailer )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ud5U8lFKuus&feature=related Season 1 : Pilot episode, Damon is introduced at the end of the episode. : 24 seconds

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVJWBU351eE Season 1: Pilot episode, encore of the “Hello, brother.” REALLY AWESOME! WATCH( this is what completely draws you in and makes you want to watch the second episode)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62Q_MHMK20E Season 1: Episode 2, Damon bites Caroline REALLY SEXUAL! :22

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pzpwbCwO0mc&feature=related Season 1: Episode 3, Stefan turns into Elena, ELENA’S DREAM 1:01

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hb-bJV0hXUQ Season 1: Episode 3, Damon and Elena scenes 4:29

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y61iCEkRG4g Season 1: different episodes put together to show how Damon acts, really worth watching 2:39

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EH0GSPaLWnY&feature=related Season 1: Car wash scene

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkdzxVIIRiQ&feature=related Season 1: Episode 6, Elena finds out STEFAN’S A VAMPIRE! 3:25

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuDW_kwvtM4 Season 1 : Episode 9, Caroline and Matt scenes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouEB_fCzls4 Season 1: Episode 12, Stefan and Elena at the 50’s dance, he shows his moves

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFC0DdcPUW0 Season 1: Episode 19, Stefan BITES AMBER! DRINKS HUMAN BLOOD 1:21

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvj7Mgf-3CI&feature=related Season 1: Episode 19 Elena STABS Stefan with vervain 3:08

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JUiqhgRyTI Season 1: Episode 20, Stefan and Elena ring scene 3:24

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJuij3eZoU0&feature=related season 1 : Episode 21, Damon threatens Isobel(Elena’s absent vampire mother) 2:28 REALLY GOOD!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUpwxRg1GxA Season 1 Finale, Katherine pretends to be Elena, CUTS OFF JOHN”S FINGERS!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sE8yf7QbP3g Season 2: Premiere episode, Damon confronts Elena about his feeling, kisses her and KILLS JEREMY(Elena’s brother) 3:14

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emMt79LeuSw&feature=related Season 2 premiere, Bonnie meets Katherine 2:08

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fp4rvYgIng&feature=related Season 2 Premiere, ELENA MEETS KATHERINE 1:29

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7V_whAyhx4&feature=related Season 2: Episode 6 ELENA BREAKS UP WITH STEFAN OVER KATHERINE! 2:20

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_YwrhtkYYo Season 2: Episode 7, Damon and Stefan tries to KILL KATHERINE, ELENA FEELS EVERYTHING! 9:21

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwaRoZtF4wg Season 2: 8th episode, Damon tells Elena he loves her(This killed me along with a lot of Delena fans, it was sad, but romantic) 2:11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ZMziQfuMhQ&feature=related Season 2, episode 10, Damon tries to bring Elena back home, threatens her.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFomfyqzJmQ&feature=related Season 2, episode 10, Damon’s second attempt to bring Elena home, Elijah RIPS TO GUYS HEARTS OUT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-S68jM7Nez0&feature=related Season 2: Episode 11, Tyler transforms into a WEREWOLF 8:15

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQZPRa74P5Y&feature=related Season 2: 12th episode, Damon DRUNK, SHOWING HIS EMOTIONS, KILLS INNOCENT GIRL! (LOVED THIS PART!)  2:13

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6J7LTKgqpU Season 2 :Episode 15, Damon finds Katherine taking a shower in his room, she steps out naked and talks to him 1:11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9g2FrJk8f-M&feature=related Season 2: Episode 16, Katherine bites Luca, he attacks Bonnie 1:03

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2daSN2v9erY&feature=related Season 2: Episode 8, Damon and Elena dance at Decade Dance cute! :49

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdI-496CN34&feature=related Season 2: Episode 18, Bonnie tries to kill Klaus, ends up dying.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dnWtFu5Xhm8&feature=related Season 2: episode, 19 STEFAN AND DAMON FIGHT 2:42

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORi230rnjfM Season 2: episode 20, Damon feeds Elena blood to save her and Stefan and Damon fight! 1:47

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKoCNIYiSwI&feature=related Season 2: Episode 21, Caroline and Tyler on their friendship, really cute TYLER’S A WEREWOLF 2:02’

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jhX4TJuChMM&feature=related Season 2 finale, Damon and Elena scenes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkfM0NRsVOk&feature=related Season 2 finale, Jenna DIES

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFC0DdcPUW0 Season 3 PREMIERE, Damon trashes Stefan’s room, Stefan calls Elena VERY SAD! I was actually rooting for them when I saw this 2:09

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNBU11zfiZY&feature=related Season 3: Episode 2, Damon pushed Elena in the Lake and they argue about her safety 3:11

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tEjJx4AsG0A&feature=related Season 3: Episode 2, Damon, Alaric, and Elena flee the mountains filled with Hybrids, Damon asks Elena why she wanted to leave( AMAZING!)  4:35

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrOkFMRZ8Kg Season 3: Episode 3, Stefan tells Elena he doesn’t wan to see her( at the end ) 3:51

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WvkYr-GsX1E&feature=related Season 3: episode 4, Damon confronts Caroline’s dad, BITES HIM, Caroline and Damon fight, Elena and Damon have an argument. “I’m not STEFAN!” 2:42

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U5WxMc4AQHc Season 3: Episode 3, Stefan sees Elena for the first time after he gave himself over to Klaus 2:07

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GzVbWPvbA14 Season 3: Episode 5, Stefan bites Elena, Klaus compels him to turn off his humanity! REALLY GOOD!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXCxxfPKW3s Season 3: Episode 8, Michael fights Klaus! REALLY AWESOME to see Klaus at a low point 1:43

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fo3E1WFqDl8 Season 3: Episode 8, Damon and Elena training “Bang your dead.” :48

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ru6Edc2ALj8  Season 3: Episode 8, Damon and Elena ending scene, REALLY CUTE! 2:34

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GNOSo5-MT8&feature=related Season 3 mid season finale, Damon, Elena, and Stefan bathroom scene, STEFAN’S A DICK! 2:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vqunjl6-y3k&feature=related Season 3: Episode 9 KLAUS KILLS MIKAEL! 3:16

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=510GRts70sA&feature=related Season 3 mid season finale, Caroline breaks up with Tyler Sad smile SAD!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o88zR612jfA Season 3 mid season finale, Elena, “Then we’ll let him go!” LOVED IT, thought they were gonna kiss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGo2PGgtQuE&feature=related Season 2, mid season finale STEFAN THREATENS KLAUS! 1:19

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmIjCGYtWZg Season 3 mid season PREMIERE :31

My insane BFE!(Best Friend for Eternity)

My best friend got me a Vampire Diaries board game, Breaking Dawn part 1 Illustrated movie companion, two nail Color Quick pens, A Pack A Snack of mini Hersey bars, a rainbow makeup applicators pack, Nail polish strips, Nail polish, Fizzer Balls that make the water fizzy when you put them in the tub! That girl is too nice and generous for her own good! She doesn’t just give a person one gift, she gives them like   six in one bag, it’s a real selling point for her, but not everybody’s as nice as her and I’m trying to tell her don’t let people use you, something my granny’s always telling me. I always feel bad because I never have money to give her anything, for my birthday in May her mom and aunt gave me like $60! She gave a New Moon scarf and gift card last year for Christmas, and a couple years back she gave me a cute little bag with a lot of candy in it. I never get her anything, but it’s not by choice! Today my aunt gave me $45 and I received a $10 check from Upward Bound( Saturday Sessions ) so I’m going HAM when my granny lets us go shopping. I’m getting my mom, my sister, my granny and Lauren something. This Christmas was kind of dry in the cash department, if ya know what I’m sayin . . . But presents aren’t what Christmas is about, so it doesn’t really matter, it just felt a little weird to be honest. I did get two sweaters/cardigans and a Ralph Lauren sweater jacket thing( purple with the blue horse symbol ) and some Mariah Carey perfume! Anyway THANKS TO MY BFE! I LOVE YOU! We’ve known each other since our Venable days( 2nd grade ), we were close acquaintances from fifth grade until ninth, but we weren’t best friends until freshman year in High School. BYE! I’ve got some writing to do for my book! PEACE OUT LOVELY PEOPLES!

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Demi Lovato You ROCK!

So,I know I haven’t written in a while, but that’s not the point. I’m doing this in tribute to Demi Lovato( she’s not dead! I just couldn’t think of another word for it )

Anyway, I was a huge  fan od Demi Lovato during her Disney Days, I bought her CD’s, sung her songs in my room at the top of my lungs, and watch her jamming with the JoBro’s. Then came a time when I stopped watching TV so much and Demi was wisked away to rehab to deal with her problems.I was shocked when I heard and really sad.My favorite lyric of hers was, “Who said I can’t my Converse with my dress.” from La La Land. Now, for of those of you who don’t know, just to recap, Demi Lovato got her break in Camp Rock, a Disney movie staring the Jonas Brothers, then she got her own show Sunny With a Chance, and a mini series As the Bell Rings. Demi also sings( she’s amazing!! ) I’m not exactly sure when but a while back she checked herself into a medical center from cutting and eating disorders over the years.It was said, and I can’t remember how reliable the source was, that she cracked under the pressure of being on tour with her ex boyfriend Joe Jonas and his now ex girlfriend Ashley Green. I don’t think that’s necessarily true, but I do think it might have the contributed to her wanting to get help. Anyway, Demi got out a while back and made a new album that demi lovato  picsdemi-lovato-skyscraperdemi-lovato-hairstyles-2demi_lovatocontra el cancer gala 240910lovato82

released this year Unbroken. This album was said to have all of Demi’s feelings poured into it. Her song Skyscraper http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_8ydghbGSg&ob=av2e I thought was the one that best portrayed those feelings, plus the video was really emotional, she was just amazing in it. Skyscraper was the first things I heard from her since she’s gotten back on her feet and I loved it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlQGZLktylk  This was the video she made to her fans : A letter to my fans . . . I couldn’t help crying when I saw it. I ‘ve watched it like around five times and I tear up every time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PlUk1eRVfu8 I thought this song, Give your heart a break, I just heard it today and I thought it was beautiful! Anyway, the picture arrangement above was to show you how much she’s changed in her career, and I could not be more proud of her, simply because when I was younger I use to cut myself( don’t tell nobody ) and I still struggle with Bulimia myself, just like Demi, only she’s tackled her problems head on. Demi’s transformed from this corky, funny, lovable Disney star to this amazingly strong, fearless, and powerful young woman that I would love to be like.

Smile I’m always praying for you and I love supporting you.

Dry Spell

“I believe it’s meant to be Darling. I watch you when you are sleeping, do you feel the same? . . . Is this love an eternal flame?”Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest. Now I can move on. Lately I’ve been busy with writing my book, reading( for fun and for school, which is not so fun ), and trying to figure some things out. At first, I wanted to be with Drew, and I accepted that, but then I started thinking. I know you can’t chose who you love, but I don’t want to love someone who lives in the projects, I know that sounds horrible, but you think about it, put yourself in my position: A teenage girl wanting a true gentleman whose smart, funny, handsome, and not necessarily rich, but is middle class like I am, lower middle class at that( I keeps it real, and yes I just said that ). Would you want a guy who flirts with everything with boobs, that can be very sweet sometimes, and lives in the projects? I’m going to go out on a limb here and say, “No, no you wouldn’t.” I’m not saying that I’m better than him by any means, but I just want a better situation that than. One that I could go to my boyfriends house to meet his mom and not be embarrassed to tell my family that he lives in the “Ghetto", it’s actually pretty nice, way better than the one’s in the city! But still. . . I just want a future that looks nice, and I hate to think thoughts like these, but I don’t see Drew going to college. With $ tight all around in the 99% I would most likely get to college on scholarships, that’s if I’m lucky, I have the motivation. I  just can’t get end up stuck here, with a pitiful grocery store job, living with my grandma( no, she’d kick me out ), up to no good. That will not be my life, I’ll die before it becomes my life. With that said, I don’t think Drew has the motivation to push for it. I know where he wants to go( Full Sail University, the same college I have to go to ), because I brought the catalog thing in at school and showed them to him and he loved. He said he wanted to do something in Gaming, like animating them/ drawing them or something. That day made me smile, because I wasn’t really talking to him then, this was before he started smoking.I think I was heartbroken over him and my assigned seat was next to him and he started talking to me, even though I was rude to him before. He was so interested in seeing it, and when I saw him take an interest I was secretly happy, because it looked like if he was determined to go there, then he’d clean up his act a little and really get serious. But that didn’t happen. And while writing this, I thought, “Why not remind him of this when school starts again.”So, I’m here going strong with the notion that I’m 100% over Drew, but I will remain his friend and try and help him with his future. That’s another thing, I ‘m in these general classes with the minority, black kids, and they, most of them, have no motivation. Sometimes I hear them saying how dumb they are,and I’ll tell them that they are. I feel like because most of them see me as the smart kid amongst them, because it seems that I always know the answers, and I read a lot in school, that to hear me say that they are smart means a lot to them. I also take an interest when they talk about college, I just can’t help it. I love to see kids with their backgrounds thinking about college.

An excerpt from my book

This was the party/rave scene I was telling you about:

We got to the wear house in twenty more minutes. Everyone parked where they could and jumped out of the cars. Some people were holding beer, some were holding other things. Before we even entered the music was bumping. Was there people already here? Another school maybe. We saw our rivals partying it up, and they saw us. The place was completely illuminated by the glow of glow sticks, necklaces and bracelets, and the multi-colored laser spreading light from place to place. There was about to be a brawl, but everybody came to party and do stupid stuff. We came bearing more beer and drugs, so we squashed it for the remained of the night. Soon everyone was dancing and sweaty. Their were tops taken off, things thrown, people kissing, others grinding. There was a group of people going around selling condoms. Smart, I bet a lot of people forgot to bring them. This guy with dreads was blowing smoke into an Asian girl’s face. A girl was practically naked and crowd surfing. That wouldn’t end up badly. " " passed me a drink, I gulped it down. This is exactly what I needed. A break from work. A very misguided break from work, but a break none the less. I started dancing with " " and whoever was behind me. I moved from person to person, then that guy with the dreads came my way and it was all a blurry as I inhaled and coughed, trying to wave the smoke away. A felt hands on my butt, my back, my stomach. Skin was just on skin. Everybody seemed to be pressed up against someone else, it was getting very hot very quickly. Somehow I ended up with two glow necklaces and a bracelet. I was taking drinks left and right, hoping that Daren was having a good time. He needed a break from his life too. Then it hit me, he probably won’t drink at all because of what happened between his parents. He probably doesn’t even want to be here, just came because he didn’t want to be left out. I started on my quest to find him and spotted him with a cup, talking to Brenda Michelson from my rival school. I hated Brenda Michelson! She was the captain of her cheerleading squad, a total bitch, totally blonde, and totally fake. Why was he talking to her? He didn’t even like fake girls like that. But then I remembered it was a party, more like a rave, and calmed down. I tried to get to him, but some guy was dancing up on me. Instead of resisting, I played along. I turned around to face him, it was Derek. He was really hot with his dark brown hair, and blue eyes. He was really well toned and it suited him. Our bodies pressed into each other as we rocked to the beat, his hands began to roam, grabbing my butt, my boob. I didn’t even try to resist, it felt amazing as we swayed and grinded heavily. "You are so hot." Derek screamed over the music. I smiled and continued to dance. "So your boyfriend doesn’t mind you dancing with half the party?"
    "What? I don’t have a boyfriend!" I knew he was talking about Daren, but I wanted to see where this was going.
    His eyebrows raised in curiosity. "Really?"
    I smiled seductively, or at least I hope it was seductive. "No." He looked up past me, no doubt at Daren flirting with Brenda. She had her nasty, slutty paws all over him. "As a matter of fact, I’ve been dying to do this." I pulled his head down, our lips meeting. I don’t know what I was thinking kissing him, all I knew was that I had to even the playing field. If Daren wanted Brenda, then I could have Derek. The kiss was great, but it didn’t feel right. Then I realized that I wished that the hands on my butt, one clutching my cheek, and the lips devouring mine belonged to Daren. I pushed Derek away, apologize, then walked away. When I looked for Daren he wasn’t in the same spot as before. What did that mean? Was he off with Brenda, letting her have her way wit him? Or some other girl? Had he seen the kiss? Did he care? Did I care? I grabbed another cup, and downed the contents. "Maybe you should slow down." A guy said as he danced. I smiled at him.
    "I’m good, thanks."
    "I’ve been watching you all night and it looks like you’re hitting it too hard. You’re gonna be fucked up tomorrow." he warned.
    I considered that. "Whatever." I walked away, looking for the bathroom and found two people having sex on the sink instead. "Gross." I said as I closed the door. I made me way over to " " She was dancing with some guy from St. Lucius. "Hey." she smiled. She didn’t look at all messed up like me. How was that possible? She drunk more than me. "Are you okay?" she asked.
    I stumbled away, bumping into sweating bodies. Instead of pushing them out the way I once again joined in. And once again someone’s hands found my butt. Really?
    Once again I let the beat control my body, forcing me to gyrate and sway along with everyone else. "Yeah!" someone yelled into my ear, I turned around and smiled at them. It was Chip, Brenda’s recent ex. My smile grew, devious thoughts crossed my mind. "Wanna dance?" he asked me.
    Instead of answering I started dancing on him, hoping that Brenda would somehow see. Our bodies pressed together, working off the beat. The place was spinning all of a sudden and I throwing up in a trash can with someone holding my hair. I didn’t really care who it was, but was happy they took pity on me. Then it all became a blur. I was trying not to throw up again, my head was spinning while I stumbled into people. Air, I needed fresh air. Who I guessed was the same person that held my hair guided me outside, away from the polluted air and sweating bodies rubbing up against each other. Once outside I fell on the ground, trying to steady myself. Those hands  grabbed me, gently pulling me to my feet. I swirled around to see Daren wearing a concerned face. I laughed. "Hey, there you are Mr." My words slurred by my drunkenness.
    "I’m taking you home." he said.
    I tore my arm away from his grasp. "No! I wanna dance." I said, starting to gyrate the thumping from inside. "Dance with me." I wrapped my arms around his neck. He pulled them off and started for a car. "No." I protested. "You’re mean!"  With that he lifted me off my feet and carried me to the car. "Has anyone ever told you you’re aggressive?" He strapped me in and walked over to the driver’s side. I turned the radio on really loud. He ended up turning it down a bit. "Why are you such a party pooper?" My hand found it’s way to his shoulder. "You’re so sexy." My hand moved to his leg. He looked at me. I laid my head on the headrest. "Why aren’t we going out? Can I call you Mr. Sexy?" I rubbed my hand along his warm leg. "Can I tell you a secret? I really want to kiss you right now." I held my other hand up to my lips  to shush him. "Don’t tell anybody, it’s a secret."
    "God, you’re really drunk." he removed my hand from his leg.
    I pouted and looked away offended. I closed my eyes and fell asleep. Some time later Daren carried me back to his dorm. "Come on, wake up." he smacked my air. I opened my eyes. "What?" He had me in his bed.
    "Here," he shoved a plate of food at me. "You need to eat this." I didn’t protest, it felt good going down whatever it was. It was good too. "And drink this." It was bitter and nasty. I choked on it and made a face which he laughed at. "It’s coffee."
    "It’s nasty!" I protested.
    "There’s no sugar in it that’s why." he gave a small smile.
    He was so beautiful it was hard not to stare at him. "You’re really nice."
    His smiled brightened along with his eyes. "Thanks."
    "And really cute!" I fell back onto the bed, my heading hitting the soft pillow.
    He tucked me in. "And you’re still drunk."
    I stretched out, loving the feel of his bed. His pillows and sheets smelled just like him. I practically melted into them. "And you smell really good." Then I remembered something that I had to share. "You know there’s a scientifical  study that proves if the opposite sex smells good to you then that makes your attraction like a hundred times stronger." He took that in. Instead of replying he bent down at kissed my forehead softly. It sent shock waves of delight throughout my body. I wanted more contact. He started for the door. I turned onto my side. "Wait." He turned to face me. "Don’t leave me alone." I waited for him to join me but he just stood there, looking at me. "Please." I begged. With that he climbed into his bed and turned on his side to face me. My eyes covered every inch of his angel like face. "Thank you."
    His grayish blue eyes gazed into mine. "No problem."
    "I love you."
    His face lit up, then relaxed. "I love you, too." His hand caressed my exposed cheek. "Go to sleep." I listened to him and closed my eyes.

Does it offend you, yeah?–With a heavy heart

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FckNAemaIDU

Ever since last night I’ve been adding to my book, one of my scenes was a party/rave scene when Arianna’s still at St. Paul’s ( I’ll post a little bit of it later ), and when I first thought of it I was like that’s so out of character for her to act this way9 because I’ve written most of the book after she left and some parts for the next books in the series I felt I needed to write when I thought of it ), but then I realized that the reader is still learning about her at that point and it would be interesting to see her in a party setting, making bad decisions and disoriented  ( even though I already wrote a club scene for later on ). Anyway, here’s a list of songs I listened to while writing it to get me into a party mood.

Lil Wayne-6 ft 7 ft

Britney Spears – Till the world ends ft Ke$sha and Nicki Minaj

Wallpaper – #Stupidfacedd

David Guetta ft Taio Cruz – little bad girl

Wiz Khalifa ft Too short – On my level

David Guetta – Sexi Chick

Benny Benassi – House music & Satisfaction ( for this one type in thirteen  music video on youtube and it’s the 6 minute one, it’s different than the original )

Lil Wayne – A milli

David Guetta ft Soter – I get high & We like to Bone

Does it Offend you, yeah? – Let’s make out

Real rave music ( type in exactly on youtube, the 8: 52 one )

DJ Splash – No limit

Lullaby

Bad news : I’m sick! It’s not official but I sneezed when I wrote “I’m sick” and the back of my mouth is really dry. My granny’s getting sick too and I didn’t feel sick until she got home last night. So I’m blaming this on her! But on the bright side, If I’m sick I can’t go to my bff’s house to spend the night. She called me yesterday when she was at the mall, I was here with my mom watching tv on demand. I had to catch up on Grimm, Revenge, and Always Sunny in Philadelphia. Anyway she was buying people gifts and said we should do something tomorrow, which is today, and I said “Hey, can I spend the night at your house?”And she was like I’m not with my mom to ask her right now. . .and I was suppose to ask granny, but it looks like that’s not working out now. And if I’m sick then I don’t have to be pissed that I can’t go, because I have to stay and take care of granny.

But the really important thing that happened to me was coming to the realization that I love D so much that I’d rather die than let him go. I got that from Ron Pope’s Lullaby. The exact lyric is, “And I swear on my soul I’d rather die than let her go.”I just substituted her for him, and BAM! I’m left feeling sad and empty because I won’t see him until next year, and I’m already feeling nauseous and empty in his absence.Why can’t I just grow some balls and tell him how I feel! Want to know something really pathetic? My last day of exams this week I dressed  sexy, or at least tried to, but I did get a lot of compliments, just for him. I had on black skinny jeans, boots, a black top with red writing on it, and deep red lip gloss( I improvised with red lipstick and pinkish lip gloss. ). I said I was going to flirt with him, and make him forget about any other girl, maybe even kiss him and he wasn’t even there! Do you know how upset I was?! He wasn’t at the bus stop and neither was that girl, I knew it was stupid to think that maybe they were hanging out together because they didn’t have an exam for the first half of the day, but then he wasn’t in for our math exam and I just felt really stupid. Like when you wear makeup for a guy and he doesn’t even look your way. And is it stupid to think that maybe D does like that girl? Kimberly doesn’t like her, probably because I don’t like( only because she flirts with D and has a bf ), which makes Kimberly a really good friend in my opinion. She can be wild and erratic, but supportive where it counts.

I’m hoping when we go shopping after Christmas for my Christmas gifts ( money differences ) that I can find a new wardrobe that will make me feel more sophisticated and smart, someone worth taking an interest in.

He’s back!

Somehow I knew that he would be there today! I just knew it! The funny thing was the bus got there before I did, right when all the kids swarmed the door of the bus and I couldn’t see him and I thought he wasn’t there and I had a brief moment of disappointment, then I saw him and I had this nervous jolt throughout my body! Quickly I ran onto the bus and tried to stop smiling! Anyway, later on in History when K was like “She missed you, she was sad.” I was like STFU You Idiot! I don’t want him to know that! But I played it off, so now he thinks I didn’t actually miss him, and yeah. We’ve always had a love hate relationship and I told C I was gonna punch him in the arm, and I did. And it felt amazing, I just focused my missing him anger and sadness into that one punch. Then he sat down, because he knows I’ll hit him again.Then we exchanged angry banter and he punched me in the arm, yeah, I know that sounds bad, but I’m used to it. That’s how we roll. Haha, I remember I punched him in the stomach one day and he punched me right back, but not as hard. He called it flirting. Oddly I couldn’t stop smiling. Oh yeah, so he punched me in the arm and after that, on our way out to our next class he grabbed my bookbag and told me to wait for him. I had candy in my mouth and pretended not to hear what he said and he told me to go ahead( the bell had rung ) and he caught up with me in the hall. It was cute and awkward between us because there’s this unsaid love between us. I mean, he doesn’t know I like him ( and let’s be honest I do again ),and I know he likes me a lot( not sure if he thinks it’s love ). If you think about it, it’s totally obvious that I like him a lot, he just has to look through all me crap and sort it out and I need to stop being a pussy and tell him how I feel! ( lol ) But that will come in time. . .Another thing I just realized: I went through two weeks of missing him and this week is Exam Week, I’ll only see him on the bus and tomorrow for our English exam, and Math and that’s it before Christmas break, which is another two weeks of not seeing him and missing him! UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ( I couldn’t let that out so I had to write it, lol ) But on the bright side, when I see him again it’ll be a new year, which means a new start, which means anything can happen!

Matt Wertz–Running Back to You

"Running Back To You"

Maybe you’ll always learn the hard way
Maybe the only way is through
That after all the dust is settled
You’re the only thing I know is true
Either way, either way
I am running back to you, running back to you
Right away, right away
Got me running back to you, running back to you
Oh oh oh
Lately surrender isn’t willing
But it’s surrender all the same
All the spaces you’ve been filling
After I’m the one who ran away
Either way, either way
I am running back to you, running back to you
Right away, right away
Got me running back to you, running back to you
Oh
Where I’ve been all these years with you beside me
I can’t believe that you can love me all the same
How far I’ve run, who I’ve become, you’ll always find me
After all I’m the one who ran away
Either way, either way
I am running back to you, running back to you
Either way, either way
I am running back to you, running back to you
Run away, run away,
Got me running back to you, running back to you
Oh oh oh yeah
I’m running back to you
Running back to you
Oh, run away
Oh, run away
Running back to you
Running back to you

Expectations

I know if I say I don’t expect D at the bus stop or at  school today and I end up expecting him there then I’ll be disappointed. So I ‘m just going to be open minded about the situation. I’m not going to get my hopes up of him being there, but even then I can’t help but  seeing his smiling face there, waiting for me. And I’ll pretend like I didn’t miss him at all and he’ll pretend that he doesn’t care, or he’ll make it awkward by making a display of how hurt he is and I’ll be annoyed with him before we even get on the bus. Old Times. . . But that’s the thing what if he’s at the bus stop, what if he’s there with that girl, who I’ve talked to while he was away and still don’t know her name, and he sees me and doesn’t say anything. If that happens I’ll break down inside. I can’t handle another one of those moments from him. If he does that when I finally do see him then I’m done with him for good. And that’s a promise. That within itself is too much expectation. I’m hoping he’ll be there and in that hoping comes a huge load of disappointment when he isn’t there. That’s why I’ve taken to walking to the bus stop like two minutes before it shows up so I won’t have to stand there and pretend to read, or at least try to show that I’m not phased by his absence. I’ll post more when I get home and make sure to SIGN MY PETITION TO BRING BACK THE NINE LIVES OF CHLOE KING! http://www.change.org/petitions/that-abc-family-bring-back-the-show-the-nine-lives-of-chloe-king-bring-back-the-show-the-nine-lives-of-chloe-king  PLEASE SIGN AND SHARE THE LINK! PLEASE AND THANK YOU! Smile